I feel so rotten inside.

 Ayokong magkaanak pero may breeding kink ata ako lmfao or baka alam ko na pero ayoko lang aminin. 

Matt is not my lifeline and I'm still my own person, but the days have been hard. I'm so glad for his existence. I don't necessarily believe in God, but if I did, I'd thank the Lord for Matt.

Now onto ranting:

Sad about work bc I'm not deep enough it seems. Not elaborating.

I feel ugly. Matt tried reassuring me, the sweetheart that he is. Tis a me problem though and completely out of his hands.

Sad about the usual. I don't feel motivated at work. Tis all.

I just want to keep this here. I love Matt so much.

I'm so sad. So, so sad. Nagbabasagan pa ng pinggan kapitbahay, di ko alam kung magiging concerned citizen ba ako or hayaan at normal lang ba yan.

I'm so, so, so sad. 

Sorry I haven't posted for like a month. I've been so out of it the entire time. I hope you're still around.

Idk. I just want to repeat this: I don't necessarily believe in God, but if I did, I'd thank the Lord for Matt. I truly feel this. 

I feel unbearably sad.

 I feel like utter shit physically, mentally, and all last week.

I have to say, kahit na masama pakiramdam ko talaga, I always feel anxious going to a doctor. Could it have any connection to when I was laughed at the first time I OD-ed? Maybe. But I always feel like no one ever believes me. 

Do I still have a job later? I hope so. 

I wish my brain would stop.

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